New Years Resolution

My new years resolution is quite vague. It’s simply: Take a chance. This can be applied to just about anything. Too long have I lived within my comfort zone and rarely tried pushing myself out of it. That ends right now. I’m sick of feeling like I’m not living because I constantly refuse to go outside of my comfort zone. I want to do things I haven’t ever done before because I was afraid to do it. I started working on this last year, and I’ve been doing pretty well thus far. Though, I want to go further. I’m going to be like the yes man. Rarely will I say no. Why not go for it? If I see a cute boy I’d love to talk to, why not go talk to him? One of my biggest fears is rejection. So, if I ever see a cute boy I find interesting and that may possibly be gay, I’m going to go talk to him. I’ve never actually confronted a person like that face to face. I’m so afraid I’m going to say something stupid. Not anymore. I’m just going to go for it. I finally realized I have nothing to lose, and that I won’t die some tragic death of I get turned down. Also, this applies to thinks that are potentially dangerous. Of course it’s limited to within reason. I believe this will make me a better person. It will make me more extrovert and love being around people more. Currently, I do love being around people, but only for so long before I get anxious and want to be alone for a while. Like recently, I’ve been around people just about everyday for a week. I usually go out on Monday’s but I decided to stay home because I just wasn’t in the mood to be around people. I’m very proud of the person I’m becoming and I think this will just add to it.

My other new years resolution is to try to get fit, eat healthier and stop procrastinating about certain health problems I have currently that need fixed. I did start doing some exercises practically everyday for a few weeks but I gave up during Christmas. I’m hoping when I get a Wii and a Wii Fit it will help me get in shape better. Also, I’m generally pretty good at eating healthy for the most part. Though over Christmas I binged on pretty much everything that was horrid for me. I think it was acceptable though since it was the holiday season. Then the last part is about my health problems. Such as the mole on my back, it needs to be removed asap. Also, I need to see a dermatologist about my skin to see if I have any other potential problems that need fixed, and also about my acne which I want rid of completely. The whole mole deal is probably my biggest problem currently. I don’t think it is anything but it’s better to be safe then sorry. The only other thing I can really think of is my Orthostatic Hypotension. Basically just means I get a bit dizzy, black out, and possibly faint if I get up too fast sometimes. It’s because I have low blood pressure to begin with, and also the fact that I have a weak heart. Being tall and skinny doesn’t help either. My heart has a problem pumping blood to my head fast enough when I stand up, thus resulting in dizziness, blacking out, and sometimes fainting. It’s not a big deal by any means, I just have to increase my salt intake. That will help keep my blood pressure up and I should be good.

If anyone has any new years resolutions that they would like to share, feel free to write them in the comments. I’d love to hear about them.

~ by dreamchrisdream on January 5, 2009.